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New Day, New Hope

I am in so much pain right now… but I am so happy today it feels like the best day of my life  I saw another oncologist today… the one that treated me when I had breast cancer. Although nothing has changed in my body, she talked to me about the options I have and gave me back that little spark of hope that I was losing 

My diagnosis from the hospital was “Cancer until proven otherwise.”. Well my oncologist says instead to change this diagnosis to “NOT cancer until we prove it is”. Wow, what a big change that is just flipping those words around!  She is still worried about the spot on my rib and my pain… but she has a plan and that plan is all I needed to get the little spark of hope in my heart..

She has me scheduled for a PET scan that will show if there is any cancer activity anywhere else in my body, she also scheduled a needle biopsy. The other doctors said the needle biopsy wouldn’t be possible, but my oncologist today said “Well lets try it”  If that doesn’t work we can do the bone biopsy that is more invasive but even that she said wouldn’t be as bad as they made it out to be in comparison to what I’ve been through before.

She even said if it turns out to be cancer that this is highly treatable, and NOT a death sentence. She said I would still get to see Isadora grow up. Now knowing that no matter what I could see her graduate college and get married.. Oh I sooo needed to hear those words! She said maybe I wouldn’t make it to be 80 or 90, but I could go on to live a good life and DO GREAT THINGS. She sure is onto something because right now I feel like I got yet another chance in this life, so I better do great things with it…

I jokingly said that I was telling Isadora she could get married when she is 30… Now I will change it to 21. That means 12 more years i have to make it … I sure can do that with or without cancer  So I will be around 50… If I make it that far it’s all I need. Anything over… that is a just bonus  Everybody laughed, but like I said before.. I gotta keep my sense of humor during this time.

I left that office so happy today, I could go outside and tell even a stranger… LET ME TELL YOU A GOOD NEWS…. I MIGHT NOT HAVE CANCER in my body… I might not have it! I can’t tell you how much hope this gives me and how happy I am today.

Thank you so so much for all your prayers and support… I know my body is the same as it was before, but I feel so much more hopeful now. I think the PET scan and needle biopsy will be scheduled later on this week or early next week. I will update everybody when I have more information to share.

So today, despite the pain that I am in, I am the happiest woman in the whole wide world. So happy that I MIGHT NOT HAVE cancer, and happy that even if I do I will be able to make it for a few good years. Amazing how I can find so much happiness and hope in seeing that tiny, tiny light at the end of the tunnel..

FlowerJust like a little flower comes to life as spring is coming our way, that’s how I feel today. The flower may have to survive harsh winds, and heavy rains in order to come out of the bud and become the beautiful flower we see. That’s how I see my life today… I went through harsh winds, heavy rains and days when I just prayed to make it another minute and not lose hope. But now… even if for a short time, I am able to bloom and enjoy my life just as it is with its ups and downs.
I’m so very grateful for all your words of encouragements.. for the many cards and flowers and little gifts so many of you send for me and Isadora… we both feel so loved.. so surrounded by amazing people all over the world… I can’t tell you how much I love each one of you.. how much I love life..
If I come to life with this little hope and feel like I can do wonders… Imagine when I will know more and have more hope… I will indeed do GREAT THINGS!!!

Going to bed tonight soooo happy… a happiness I haven’t experienced in a LONG LONG TIME… in a lot of pain still, BUT SOOO HAPPY!!!

Jen - March 30, 2014 - 7:34 pm

God bless you. I am so happy to hear that your oncologist has such a positive outlook and that she has given you renewed optimism. You are strong, and you will persevere! You’re in my thoughts. <3

Becky - March 31, 2014 - 12:52 pm

Good luck with everything you’re going through Lidia! You are already doing GREAT THINGS, so continue on! And keep the positive thoughts & optimism, as we are all sending it to you!

christine d - April 1, 2014 - 12:08 pm

I have followed your story and photography for a while, and I was so sad to hear that you might not be well. So I LOVE this post today! Every doctor should phrase their diagnoses that way! Just like people are innocent until proven guilty, people should be healthy until proven otherwise. I hope all your followers see this and spread the word and start a movement for positive change among doctors. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. And I am looking forward to years and years more of your beautiful stories and images!

Anne-Marie Cox - August 4, 2014 - 8:16 pm

You are awesome. Love and light and strength to you. <3

Everything I need

Most of you that follow me have probably read last week, that after 6 years of been cancer free… the bone tests, MRI and Cat scan show a tumor in one of my ribs, meaning that I have relapsed. I found this out about a week ago. The first time  I had cancer I knew that at least I can fight it and be cured… this time the fear that the cancer can’t be cured only  is sure a whole different fear I have to conquer. We have not done that biopsy yet to be 100% sure… The biopsy is very invasive and it’s in a dangerous spot and my lung can easily be punctured so the doctors chose to wait for bit. But the radiologist agrees that this looks like a tumor rather than a trauma to the bone.

I am on very strong pain patches and pain pills to keep the pain level down and even with that I have days when the pain is so intense. On days when things don’t make sense… when I am alone with just myself and my thoughts… I have quotes like this one that encourage my heart…

I know many of you are going through different problems… some harder than mine, some the same as mine.. I hope this quote will help you on those days when you just don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. Today is a day when I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel so I wanted to share this with everybody.

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring and I don’t know what this week or year will bring. But I do know that even though so very tired and in pain and can hardly eat anything.. Today I am ALIVE. Today I have EVERYTHING I NEED. I have my daughter close to me. I am home and not in the hospital. And I am so happy to for these little things.

Isadora whispered to me the other day, “Mama I am so glad you are home and not in the hospital. I wish I was sick cause you could take care of me at least”. That breaks my heart as a mom… to hear my 8 year old have to grow up so fast and to explain to her things that are hard for us as adults to understand. But again I have to remind myself, today she is with me and I have everything I need. It’s hard to let my mind stay present and take it one day at a time, but that is the only way to keep sane and not loose hope. To remember that for now… I might have not received anything from what I asked from God, but I received everything I needed…and THAT’S ENOUGH.

I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity and God gave me brawn and brains to work.
I asked for courage and God gave me dangers to overcome.
I asked for patience and God placed me in situations where I was forced to wait.
I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities.
I asked for everything so I could enjoy life.
Instead, He gave me life so I could enjoy everything.
I received nothing I wanted, I received everything I needed.
- Unknown


Healing through Photography

Although my energy level is pretty low, I’m trying to find healing in my love for photography so I am picking up my camera whenever I feel I can. I love photographing my dogs and some macro photography of the flowers I got from many of you while in the hospital. I used Timeless Primer, Dreamy June and Satin Finish from the Timeless Elegance Collection that is on sale till tomorrow evening for 30% off:   http://ohsoposhphotography.com/artstore/ There are also some LE collections available for a lower price for those that want to try just a few of my actions. I will try to work as much as I can during the time between doctor visits and treatments and I so appreciate your support and sharing with your photographer friends.

I have my oncologist appt next Tuesday and will see what her plan for treatment will be. I got my medical records and it’s hard to see it right there in front of me that the spot on my ribs that says in fancy words “longitudinal increased activity within the left 11th rib. Configuration favors neoplastic/metastatic rather than posttramatic”. This represents a tumor that probably metastasized from the breast cancer I had 6 years ago.

I have my days when I am full of hope and have lots of courage.. and i have days when I count how much I have to fight to make it till isadora finishes college and gets marriage. I can’t say I am always strong, but I try not to let fear and discouragement get free rent in my mind and heart.. Raising my rent price high enough where hope, love, faith and courage would be the only things that can afford rent in my heart and mind. I also hope that during this times to always keep my sense of humor no matter what:)

Here is a little picture of my sweet Daisy that makes me laugh… she is always by my side when I am home…

Daisyhttp://ohsoposhphotography.com/artstore/ Here is the website for those that want to purchase my actions and support me during this time.


Don’t forget to look up…

When things don’t make sense, don’t forget to look up at the sky. I captured this with my iPhone tonight. If my health permits I will try to have an updated Texas Skies Overlays available for purchase. Even if it’s a smaller collection…. I will try to work and provide for me and my girl even if I have to fight cancer now for the second time.

Hope you guys never forget to look up at the sky in the middle of storms that nothing makes sense and when you so want to give up…. Always look up.



Dear Cancer

LidiaDear Cancer,
Here it seems that we possibly are crossing paths again. You might have changed a few things inside my body making it hard to breath, or walk and be in pain. But see this face… Even if it still looks tired after 2 hours of getting ready, this face is the face of a survivor that it’s not about to give up. I don’t know why our roads crossed again, but rest assured that there will always be a spark of hope in my eyes, even as we are getting ready for possibly round two in the ring…

My outside appearance might change, you might claim my hair like you did before and my eyelashes and my eyebrows…. But the spark of hope in my eyes will be hard to steal. I know everybody hates you, and everybody says let’s kick cancer’s butt. And at first I hated you, too. I was so determined to make you my enemy… to fight hard until we have a winner and of course in my mind I wanted to be the winner.

But than I stopped for a second and looked back at what I learned from our first encounter.You took away everything that makes me a woman, and left my body with many scars. I thought for a very long time that you were a thief until one day I realized that you gave me many more things in my life than you took….

You gave me the joy of living my life in the present, you gave me the passion to live each day as it was my last, you gave me the compassion to share with others going through trials, you gave me a good understanding of how to set my priorities in life, you gave me peace in my heart that I never had before. You gave me plenty of time to rest my body and I was able to use that time to teach myself photography which happened to be a huge passion of mine that I had given up because I didn’t see it possible to pursue it before you. You gave me the ability to forgive people that hurt me deeply and not hold grudges. You gave me time to spend with my daughter and explain to her very hard concepts about life. You gave me patience when my daughter spills something, or makes a mess and taught me not be upset at her for messing up my all perfect home. You gave me the ability to leave the perfectionist Lidia behind and to enjoy life as if comes with it’s perfect and not so perfect moments… And you have me so many other things that I don’t think I could have learned in a lifetime.

I know the pain, the tears, the fear you bring along are hard to deal with but I am the strong woman I am today because of our first encounter together. I screamed and kicked and had a pity party at first thinking why me? Why me?… But after a while I surrendered and said WHY NOT ME? Despite your ugliness and what you did to my body you made my soul shine so bright that others can see the light and get inspired and shine their own light in their own corner of the world.

So even though I wish you would have come in my life at a more convenient time ( I mean you see I am a pretty busy woman , I have things to do:)) i trust that everything happens for a reason and I am here… ready to learn more things and let my soul shine even brighter than before. It’s hard to call you my friend but I do tell everybody that cancer was the best thing that happened in my life…. So in a way there is this love hate relationship between you and I..

My humble self that decided to see cancer not as a tragedy but as an opportunity to learn new things, and to live each day as if it was the last day of her life..

Violet - March 17, 2014 - 3:58 pm

Beautiful. Praying for you.

Anna - March 17, 2014 - 7:55 pm

This is so powerful and inspirational. What an amazing perspective. I’ll be sending you prayers from Atlanta!

Nikki - March 19, 2014 - 2:39 am

You are amazing….
I just love the way you see life!Full of love and hope and COLOUR! I love the way you speak like you have no chip on your shoulder, I love the way you are with your daughter, when I think of who I look up to in life it’s not my mother… It’s you…. :)
Kia kaka (stand strong) Arohanui (love) Nikki :)

Donna (Texas) - March 19, 2014 - 12:41 pm

Praying for you now and always!!!
Stay Strong!!!

Judy - March 20, 2014 - 9:36 am

I will pray for you too. I have been thru cancer twice now, and mine may reoccur. Bt like you I have deceided not to let it run my future. I have decided to start up my photography business, I will not put it off any longer, life is short, I want no regrets! Te BEST to you!

Kristen - March 22, 2014 - 12:10 pm

You’rean amazing photographer and extremely talented. Your daughter is so beautiful as you are too. My thoughts and prayers are with you and daughter.

Juliet - June 4, 2014 - 6:54 pm

Lydia -

My thoughts and prays are with you always. You are a fighter and you will win this battle. Keep up the positive attitude. You are an inspiration to many.

Melissa - November 3, 2014 - 8:20 pm

I stumbled across you on Pinterest, read some of the entries… And looked at a bunch of your photos.

And now I’m worried- because you haven’t written in so long. Are you okay? Does anyone know?

I’ll pray for you!