After I posted this picture on Facebook I realized I had a lot more to say about this quote and about how so many of us have big dreams not just one size bigger but two or even three sizes bigger. I don’t know about you, but I am that person that has huge dreams. Having big dreams doesn’t mean to make more money, to be rich, to be the best photographer, but you can have big dreams to help others, to write a book that will help others and so so many other dreams. But so many times we just get discouraged as our dreams are so big and we just give up and say.. well I will never get there, how is it possible to get where I want to get, I don’t have time, I am a mom, I have 3, 4, or even more children. I only have one daughter and I still look at my life and my dreams and think many times, there is no way I can ever reach my dream. But I don’t give up and I try not to fall into the trap that the dream that I have has to be pursued today. No I have it tucked away really good in my heart, I know it’s there and my dad always used to tell me, be faithful in small things first. So what are the small things?
Well, most of you reading this blog are probably moms with little ones that you gave up your carrer to stay home and nurture your children. I know I did that. I did not want anybody else to raise Isadora, I wanted to be home with her and just be part of her life and be able to teach her myself about life and hopefully see the result of all my love and time spend with her when she will grow into a strong, confident and amazing young girl. But while we sit at home, most of us, still miss that feeling that we are important, that we do something more than just play and clean and cook food. We want to be creative, we want to create memories for our family and we pursue that dream and when we reach that dream then we realize… well maybe I can stay home with the kids, take pictures of them and also make some money by trying to take pictures for my friends. And you give that a try and it’s working, you love photography and you love being at home with the kids.
But all of a sudden you have another dream.. The dream to get better and better at pictures, to have a studio, to have a lot of clients and so so so much more. And don’t get me wrong that is an amazing dream but what will happen is, the dream you had to be a stay home mom and be there for your kids will suffer. I know how hard it is to balance a full time business and being a full time mom, trust me. You see that you are getting clients, economy is tough, so how can you turn away those clients? Well, I had to make myself some very hard decisions this year. I know I could work double, triple much more than I work now, I could take clients every single day of the week, travel weekends and just be this amazing photographer. And maybe I did get caught up a little too much into this about 2 years ago when I didn’t have time to even put up the Christmas tree for Isadora, didn’t have time to go at the part with her or just didn’t have time for anything anymore. And as hard as it was I just had to step back and take only very few clients last year and this year I am not taking any new clients. I know my mind goes crazy thinking, well if you say no to those clients they will never come back to you. I know that is one of our biggest fears but I always have to remind myself that I have to be faithful in the small things first. The small things right now is taking care of my daughter. I work from 8 till about 3 when I pick her up from school. After that we have activities going on, dinner, homework and so so much more. Yes I can say I work from home and she is with me but I will be lying if she is home watching TV and I am in my office. I am not home with her. I know that now with FB the big competition is to have sooo many fans and who’s page has more people talking about their page.. I hate that FB put that in there. Another reason to try to work hard to be at the top. I will not fall into the trap of trying to find ways to get that number up, not at all. I can be creative and find ways to do that but for now I do my best WHEN I can. I don’t try to discourage people from being the best they can be, but we all have seasons in life and if that season for you right now is your business then you better go at it with all your heart. But if your season is to be a mom, please, please take it show and just be a mom. I was in shock one year when I looked back and I barely had time to take any pictures of Isadora.. I had time for everybody else but creating memories for her.
If you started photography with the idea to create lasting memories for your family, please be honest with yourself and see where are you today. If you are barely able to be a mommy to your children and never even have time to take their pictures, try to think back on what’s important in life. Our kids don’t want more toys that we can buy with the money we make, they want us to be there for them. I know everybody says.. Ohh time passes by sooo fast, can’t believe that my kids are all grown up and I used to look at those people and think.. hmm are you sure??? cause for me time doesn’t pass fast at all.. when I have to stay home and do the same thing over and over and over again. But next month Isadora is turning 7 and I get tears in my eyes and I have to agree time passes by soooo fast. I look at videos when she was about 3 or 4 and wow, it’s hard to think back on how little she was and how cute she was talking. NOw she is becoming a young lady.
I go through this struggles myself everyday and I had to really switch my priorities 2 years ago but just because I made that decision to slow it then that doesn’t mean that I don’t have to remind myself that I am a mom first of all and be there for Isadora first of all. I want to write so many blogs to help my fans, I want to do video tutorials about so many things that will help you guys, I want to create new free actions that will help those that can’t afford them, I want to do more sales, I want to do more giveaways, I want…. and the list goes on. But I do all that I can and WHEN I can. I will not sacrifies the time I have with Isadora to be the best in the industry. Nope, I would rather be the best mom first.. and if time allows once Isadora is grown up I am sure I can get that that has stayed tucked away in my heart for so long and follow it with all my heart. I could double and probably triple my income if I worked more, and then what would I do with that money?? Spend it on things?? I can never, EVER buy the time I had with my daughter and for me time is so so precious as we are never guaranteed tomorrow! I do want to go to Isadora’s gymnastics and yes I stay there for 2 hours sometimes 3 hours and I love watching her practice. I know that my mind could go on the many things I could do those hours but I try to always remind myself that she is only little for such a short time.
I hope this will help some of you that have been trying to balance this photography thing and your children. I know that when we first started in photography we thought, oh it’s so easy and I’ll edit when the kids are in bed. I did that too but my body will not let me go with very little sleep anymore. I need at least 7 hours of sleep now and I will not push my body by drinking coffee or other things to stay awake and not be able to be a mom in the morning. It is my believe that we have to first be faithful in the small things and I know that when time is right the clients will still be there, if not the ones that contacted you, maybe other clients that will be willing to pay so much more for your services. But please treasure your time with your kids now, don’t overbook yourself by having cheap, cheap rates. You can never buy the time back with your family, set your prices with the thought of how much that time away from your family is worth. For me that time is priceless at the time. I can’t do sessions on the weekends. That’s my time with Isadora, she is in school and gymnastics during the week so for me the time in the weekends is just priceless.
It would sadden my heart so much just thinking of the generation of kids we are raising and for them to say, my mom was a stay home mom but she was never there for me. We do have such an important role in shaping the next generation, don’t think that your role is not important. It is very important! And I was reading in a book, that sometimes God puts dreams in our hearts that are so big that it will take a few generations to make that dream come to life. I think many times that maybe Isadora will be the one making my dreams come true and I better raise her in such a way that she will have the same passion in her heart like I do. I have to be there for her and teach her what’s important in life, when all the kids are cheating at bingo in school she asked me, mama is it ok to cheat just a tiny bit by switching the papers? I could have said, Nope cheating is not ok. But I wanted to take the time and explain to her that when you cheat you actually cheat yourself first because you are cheating yourself from learning new things, you are cheating yourself by not going the hard way and learning and I explained to her that it’s ok to see others win over and over and over again, because God is watching and maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not in year, but soon her faithfulness in small things will be rewarded. And when we think about reward we think about money, but that is not always the case, for me the biggest reward is to have peace, to know that you are doing what you were born to do, to know that you are impacting peoples lives for better, that is far more of a reward for me. It is my wish that one day I will get to meet some of you and that you will remind me that you read this blog post, maybe not very grammatically correct, but you made the choice to be faithful in the small things!!