I made her because I love her

All the beautiful sky pictures I have been posting these past few weeks and the beautiful comments from my fans got me to stop and think why am I so passionate about life? Why am I so passionate about helping others? Why am I so passionate about photography showing how beautiful life is through my pictures? Why is this passion so strong it’s hurts at times? As I sat down and wrote this post.. I remembered.. and I hope this will light a candle in your soul to remember your passion, to remember your soul’s journey and to honor it!!

I remember the sweet comment from one of my fans back in December when I posted a picture of my Christmas tree… “Sometimes I think God gave you a little extra Lidia, when he made you.” It made me smile… And I replied.. Indeed He did.. He gave me something extra special both ways… the very creative mind, the sensitive spirit to help others, the gift of just putting colors together and so many other wonderful gifts… but He also gave me so many tears, so many tragedies in my life, he gave me a little girl with so many medical conditions that I am scared at times to look in the future and I live my life one day at a time and enjoy her every single day like it was my last day, He gave me a place to call home always far away from my family, He gave me a lot of days in the hospital where I felt so alone and so forgotten by everybody, so desperate, so scared, He gave me a body that when I look in the mirror I cringe at the view that looks like there was a masacre field on my body, He gave me a marriage that didn’t work out and I had to learn to be my best supporter, my best admirer,  my only person to believe in myself, He gave me a childhood filled with so much internal pain and fear that even to this day those memories are so fresh in my mind and if I could paint, there would not be a single detail that I would miss from those times.. And it’s true God did give me something extra when He made me… but He gave each one of us something extra special…

Most days it’s so much easier to hide that extra special, it’s so much easier to just pretent we are alive, to just go with the flow and not stop and think about how to use that extra special? Why did we come here? What’s our soul’s journey on this earth?? I know for me it was so much easier back then.. Yes the pain inside was too much for words to describe, yet who cares about that, nobody sees my inside anyway.. so why worry?? Just wake up, go with the daily routine, try to ignore that deep crying pain that comes from your soul, go to sleep and tomorrow is another day.

I remember I was 33  when I really thought, well there is nothing I will ever do with my life. I will just stay home, raise Isadora, than get a small little job in a store and there life will be over and why bother with anything. I can’t make a difference in this world anyway.. I am way too small. But deep inside, my soul was burning with a passion, a passion to inspire others, a passion to do something that will get others from their pain, a passion that has been haunting me since I was 6 years old. I remember picking a book that had way too many words for me to read, but it also had a few pictures.. A few pictures with children in other countries that were poor. And in my mind as a child, even though we were so very poor ourselves… I said to myself, One day I want to go and help those children. I get tears in my eyes thinking about that moment. But that was my soul speaking to me, and we can ignore a lot of things in our lives, but the deep burning desire coming from within our soul is hard to ignore..

As much as I wanted to lie to myself I knew that my life couldn’t  just stop there. It was painful to get up in the morning and put a smile on my face and be present with Isadora, when 2 months ago, I just flew back to Romania to see my dad for the last time, this time not as the strong 58 year old business man he was. This time it was just his lifeless body that I saw. I remember sitting by his lifeless body, and watching about 6 strong people trying to lift my brother’s wheel chair to fit through a door and I was so confused… so confused.. How can this happen all at once?? I am fighting breast cancer, my brother almost died in a motorcycle accident and now at 31 he was in a wheel chair, my dad has passed away all of a sudden because of a strong virus… how can that be??? The pictures are so crystal clear how my brother was trying to reach out of his wheel chair to see my dad’s lifeless body.. I wasn’t sure how to align my feelings of pain in order and which pain to feel at that time…But there was no order, there was no time to prepare my soul for one pain at a time.. I had to embrace all that pain and hurt.. all at one time. Oh and how I thought I will not be able to survive another day… with a heart that felt that it was just too much to handle..

I did not have any desire for pictures, for art, and actually my pictures from that time when I look back are very lifeless. No color, no tone, no beauty, just deep sorrow. I had to fake it for while, to get myself to read something encouraging, to listen to songs that would give me some hope that things will be better, that will make me feel that I am alive. At first I was just numb, then I became angry, but after I let myself feel all those feelings, I became passionate about life. A passion that is hard to explain, a passion that almost hurts at times to just keep inside and not share with others. I became committed to not be a victim, but rather embrace my past, embrace my pain, embrace my journey and use it in ways to I help others come to life, help others see the beauty in life when everything around us crashes.

I will share more of where my journey took me next, on how I was so close to quitting so many days… yet each day, I would find one little piece of hope that I would hang on so so tight. I wish I had somebody to hold my hand during those times.. I think it would have made the journey a bit easier, a bit faster, but looking back from where I am today, I am glad I walked that journey all by myself. It gives me strength and courage to know that I can walk any other journey that my soul is here to embark on.

Not sure how many of you will read this message, but even if just one person will read this and if my words will make sense to them and encourage them, my heart will be full. Because it takes one person to make a change in this world, and then it becomes like a domino effect. I will share in more detail one day how I started on my photography journey.. but it was because the encouraging words of one stranger on Flicker that commented on my picture and said.. Beautiful work my friend. Can you picture how those words affected my life? Do you think I would be sitting here knowing all I know about photography, having so many followers that I so want to inspire, had it not been for those kind words from a stranger? Can you imagine the difference you can make in your world today? We really don’t know who reads our posts, who will ever come in contact with what we put out there on our facebook pages, on our websites, but if we don’t even worry about how many people we are impacting, or that our words have no power as we are just one simple person, if we just let our soul lead us in the direction of our journey… than MIRACLES will happen!!!

So for all you beautiful women out there, that are questioning so many things about your beautiful selves, about your beautiful beings, here is poem one of my fans shared with me and I am so honored to have the privilege to share it with you.

I Made Her Because I Love Her

I made her…She is different,

She is unique,

With love I formed her in her mother’s womb.

I fashioned her with great joy.

I remember, with great pleasure, the day I created her.

(Psalm 139:13-16)

I love her smile,

I love her ways,

I love to hear her laugh,

And the silly things she says and does.

She brings Me great pleasure.

This is how I made her.

(Psalm 139:17)

I made her pretty and not beautiful,

Because I knew her heart,

And knew she would be vain…

I wanted her to search out her heart,

And to learn that it would be

Me in her

That would make her beautiful…

And it would be Me in her

That would draw friends to her.

(1 Peter 3:3-5)

I made her in such a way,

That she would need Me.

I made her a little more lonesome

Than she would like to be…

Only because I need for her to lean and depend on Me…

I know her heart, I know if I had not

Made her like this,

She would go her own chosen way

And forget Me…her Creator.

(Psalm 62:5-8)

I have given her many good and happy things

Because I love her.

(Psalm 84:11, Romans 8:23)

Because I love her,

I have seen her broken heart…

And the tears she cried alone.

I have cried with her,

And had a broken heart, too.

(Psalm 56:8)

Many thanks to Rachel Vanoven for this beautiful capture!

Many times she has stumbled

And fallen alone

Only because she would not hold

My Hand,

So many lessons she’s learned

The hard way.

Because she would not listen

To My voice…

(Isaiah 62:2)

And now she is Mine again…

I made her, and then I bought her…

Because I love her.

(Romans 5:8)

I have to reshape her and remold her…

To renew her to what I had planned for her to be.

It has not been easy for her,

Or for Me.

(Jeremiah 29:11)

I want her to be conformed to

My image…

This is the high goal I have set for her,

Because I love her.

(2 Corinthians 2:14)

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Sarah - January 30, 2013 - 2:39 pm

beautiful images…but even more beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing :)

Paola - January 30, 2013 - 2:46 pm

wow is all I can say, you are so beautiful, inside and out and I thank you for sharing this with us… I just finished my last chemo and I so hope one day I can share my pictures as a survivor with the world!! The pictures are so intense but also so beautiful… I wish you a long and wonderful life, God knows you deserve it!

Lauren - January 30, 2013 - 2:51 pm

Your bravery, faith, and love is so inspiring.

Ute - January 30, 2013 - 2:52 pm

Oh my! I wish I would know you so I could actually hug you without being that weird stranger that just randomely hugs you. LOL. What a beautiful post and what a great message!! Thank you so much!! All the best to you and your family!!!

Nickie - January 30, 2013 - 2:56 pm

Your courage, strength and creativity are far more inspiring than you can impagine. Keep smiling! x

jesica - January 30, 2013 - 2:57 pm

amazing.

Jessica - January 30, 2013 - 2:59 pm

This brought tears to my eyes! What a testament of love, courage, determination, and faith you are, Lidia!! As I walk this road of breast cancer with my beloved mom, I am inspired by your journey and filled with hope. Thank you for sharing and God bless you and sweet little Isadora.

Nancy H - January 30, 2013 - 3:04 pm

I have never shared this with anyone before, but my favorite poem is Footprints in the Sand: http://www.footprints-inthe-sand.com/index.php?page=Poem/Poem.php (I’ve never searched this poem online and don’t know much about the website I just pasted). The reason I love this poem is it reminds me God is always by my side, and when I feel alone, I think about the words. It was given to me on a calendar booklet some 20 years ago when I was in high school and I just immediately took to it. This is from someone who almost has never attended church since six years old (long story) but learned about God at 5 years and it just stuck.

Christie - January 30, 2013 - 3:05 pm

Amazingly courageous and inspirational blog Lidia. Thank you! Looking forward to more of your insight and sharing.

Angela F. - January 30, 2013 - 3:13 pm

As I sit hear, wiping tears from my face, I thank you for sharing from your heart. You are beyond beautiful. Your honesty, your LOVE, YOU. Thank you for sharing. I have no words… and that doesn’t happen very often. *smile*

Counting it all joy,
Angela

Michelle - January 30, 2013 - 3:18 pm

You are an incredible woman! I love following you, and try to be at least a fraction of the woman you are. Hugs!

casey martinez - January 30, 2013 - 3:45 pm

What beautiful, raw and real pictures of you, your family and the journey that you have had in life. What beautiful words and verses to capture this post. As one who has also had a rather trying few years I am beginning to see more and more how the scars and the pain that we all experience in life really does seem to be what makes us most beautiful as it shapes our hearts and often determines our steps. We embrace life more fully and passionately because we realize in pain just how precious each minute is and every breath is priceless. Thank you for being real here and not being afraid to share your story a little bit with all of us. You are beautiful inside and out!

Kiki - January 30, 2013 - 3:48 pm

This is so beautiful….both the images and the words. And thank you for the encouragement. Even though my experiences are different, your words still spoke to me.

crenguta elena - January 30, 2013 - 3:55 pm

Lidia watching your post on face book last few weeks,my son asked me:Why you keep looking at this posts and pictures?
Because Lidia is a fighter and i admire her a lot..And who is she fighting with?he said…Her battle is her illness and she is a winner…But there is a prize for the fighter,they usually win something,said my litlle one,did she won any prize??
She won a magic power,I said,the magical power to tell others and teach other to fight…

Lidia be proud of your hard earned prize!!!

Kelly - January 30, 2013 - 4:00 pm

I sooo wish I could meet you.. I love waking up and reading your post on FB and your blog.. You make me wanna see things differently and do things better.. Thank you for making me appreciate exactly what I have in front of me.. Life is one beautiful struggle!!

Pamela - January 30, 2013 - 4:01 pm

Big hugs to you my friend. Thank you for sharing your story.

Kara - January 30, 2013 - 4:34 pm

This is the most beautiful thing my eyes have ever read. I have never felt such raw hope, especially in The Lord. I just want to sit on this and saturate in these words. Wow.

Angela - January 30, 2013 - 4:46 pm

Thank you!!
YOU ARE SUCH AN INSPIRATION!!!

reagan elizabeth - January 30, 2013 - 4:51 pm

beautiful! the words, the images, the message…what an inspirational post. thank you <3.

jenny lowe - January 30, 2013 - 5:08 pm

chills to the depths of me. i hung on every word. you are very gifted, to be so in tune with yourself, and so fluent as to be able to express in writing precisley what you feel. beautiful post, beautiful story, beautiful woman, beautiful life, beautiful words, beautiful thoughts….so grateful you shared. stay beautiful :)

kristi - January 30, 2013 - 5:32 pm

So beautiful! Thank you for sharing. You are amazing!!!

Rachel - January 30, 2013 - 6:02 pm

Absolutely beautiful! And truly inspiring :) thank you!

Cristina - January 30, 2013 - 6:07 pm

Lidia, esti așa o inspiratie!!! Domnul te folosește într-un mod extraordinar pt a fi o incurajare pt altii/ pt mine! Amazing pics and message!

Adrian - January 30, 2013 - 7:17 pm

Remind me not to read your blog at work! Holy tears!!! Amazing. So inspiring! You rock, Lidia! You are one of my favorite people ever and I admire you so much! So glad to have you in my life!

Lisa - January 30, 2013 - 7:30 pm

It is all so beautiful. The words. The photos. The journey. Your willingness to share openly and honestly is refreshing I find that reading about your journery and seeing through your photos of where you are today is inspiring on many levels for me. My mother who had breast cancer when I was six. My good friend who died of breast cancer at 46. My daughter who was born three months early and sufferend not only the consiquences of a premature birth but also multiple hemangiomas. Many on her face and head. At one time we thought she had Phaces. I am really not certain how I stumbled upon your facebook page. I think a friend thought of me when she saw a post about your daughter. I felt connected as only a mother with a child who is dealing or has delt with medical issues can understand. Mostly I am writing this to thank you. Thank you for sharing yourself, your daughter and your journey. I find that it makes me a better mother to my daughter. It makes me more thankful for the small things in life. I also struggle with the memory of my mother having survived cancer (she will turn 80 this spring) and feel compasion for your daughter. We take that memory of almost loosing our mother with us as we grow. What we choose to do with that memory is what is important. Blessings to you. LIsa

Jaime - January 30, 2013 - 8:33 pm

You are such an incredible woman and I strive to have the strength and beauty and zest for life that you do, one day. I love your work and I think god has blessed you in so many ways. Thank you for sharing.

September - January 30, 2013 - 8:40 pm

Your words are such an inspiration to everyone!!! You are truly gifted, being able to express in writing your feelings. I love your vulnerability to share this with all those out there. You are beautiful inside & out!!!! I watched my mom draw her last breath to cancer less than a year ago. I struggled trying to stay strong and see the beauty in things. I just have to remember that God is always with me. I admire your faith, strength, and fight. Again, thanks for encouraging words!!!

Caitlin - January 30, 2013 - 8:42 pm

Lidia, you are such an amazing person. You have been very inspiring in the past & have done it once again! Thank you for sharing this! It truly shows what a strong & amazing person you are.

Kiara - January 30, 2013 - 8:44 pm

…….Amazing, beautiful and so inspiring. Such courage and strength that you have, thank you for sharing. Just wow! <3

Melanie - January 30, 2013 - 8:44 pm

WOW…that is about all I can say!! You are amazing, and very beautiful inside and out. You are so inspiring, and such an amazing women that I look up to. Thank you for sharing.

Stefanie Destine - January 30, 2013 - 8:45 pm

Lidia!

I am soooooo proud of you! I love the pictures you showed under each stanza! You are strong and courageous and more than a conqueror!!! (Joshua 1:6-9; Romans 8:28-38)

Inspired by you,
Stefanie

Allison - January 30, 2013 - 8:47 pm

Beautiful & Amazing.

You are such a strong, brave woman. Everyday I see your posts on facebook & instagram, and strive to bring my 3 boys as much joy as your bring you little girl.

Michele Southworth - January 30, 2013 - 8:48 pm

This is absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing your story, it could not have been easy, but it has made you the beautiful person that you are now! I love reading your blog, seeing your amazing photos and hearing about your adventures with sweet Isadora! You are truly beautiful!

Dianna - January 30, 2013 - 8:48 pm

You are my inspiration Lidia! <3 U and Isadora :)

Jennifer Turner - January 30, 2013 - 8:52 pm

This is simply beautiful and inspiring. You are a wonderful creation that God has made. I am so glad to have the chance to see your perfectly imperfect life. You have a special spark that is a blessing to witness. Thank you for allowing us all into your life to remind us all how wonderful life is and that even when it’s hard it is still worth living and loving . I am so glad to have stumbled on to your page on fb looking for all I can on my desire to learn what I can about my intrest in photography. Huge fan of your work and your beautiful soul!!

joanna biggs - January 30, 2013 - 8:55 pm

From on Texas dfw shutterbug to another If you ever need some one to hold your hand let me know. Amazing strength and courage. Beautiful both you and your lil angel!

Erica - January 30, 2013 - 8:56 pm

Thanks so much for sharing such a personal story.
erica

Roxi - January 30, 2013 - 8:57 pm

Lidia, may God bless you for the courage to post this and encourage so many other women that they are all beautiful and that our biggest pain and trials can be our biggest victories!

Sharna W. - January 30, 2013 - 9:09 pm

I have read what you wrote & it is so touching. If I could go back and hold your hand for a minute, I would. I am glad someone touched your heart and awoke the photographer in you too. Sometimes small encouragements can mean big things. I think you are beautiful and your soul is beautiful. I can only hope one day I am one 10th the mother you are, the person you are and the spirit you are. My husband often asks why such things can make me cry, movies, people stories, and I tell him its because I like to feel all things deeply. If I did not cry so much I may not love so much and with such great joy.

Jo - January 30, 2013 - 9:13 pm

Oh wow!!! This is very inspiring to me! Thank you!

Rose - January 30, 2013 - 9:17 pm

I.Am.Inspired.

robin - January 30, 2013 - 9:24 pm

“never underestimate the potential and power of the human spirit.”

and we never will.
namaste.
xx.
robin.

Christy - January 30, 2013 - 9:25 pm

Lidia, thank you so much for sharing your story with everyone!! You’re a strong, amazing woman, beautiful inside and out! I’m currently in the midst of my breast cancer journey, most of which, I did while pregnant with my 4th son. He endured all of my surgeries and 6 rounds of chemo with me! Today he is a happy, healthy 4-month-old!! I feel so blessed that he came into this world with no complications from my treatment! The words you posted spoke to me and I have long felt God wanted to bring me closer to him thru this journey, which as you know, is not easy! May God bless you and keep you… :)

Madison - January 30, 2013 - 9:30 pm

This is so beautiful. I understand so much of what you say and it touches my soul. You are absolutely inspiring. Thank you so much for your strength, many will benefit and grow from it. God bless you.

Crystal - January 30, 2013 - 9:34 pm

You are an absolute inspiration~ <3

Rebecca - January 30, 2013 - 9:50 pm

You’re absolutely amazing, gorgeous, courageous, beautiful inside and out … The list goes on pretty lady :) I had tears from feeling every feeling possible while readibg this post… You have now given me hope for another day and I tgank you for that :) God Bless you and your beautiful Isadora <3

Sarah - January 30, 2013 - 9:53 pm

This is an amazing story and truly inspiring!! It is so awesome for you to be able to share your story and touch so many people’s life’s with all you have been, and are still going through. It is so sad all the things you have been put through, but god knew he was choosing a strong family that would could inspire thousands of people everyday. Bless you and Isadora!

Morgan - January 30, 2013 - 10:02 pm

Beautiful. You are so special, strong and inspiring Lidia. I so look forward to reading your posts every day. You are a wonderful mother. Thank you for sharing. You are so brave.

ann - January 30, 2013 - 10:07 pm

This is beautiful!!! I too am a survivor but didn’t have the courage to go through reconstruction. After two years I still cringe when looking in the mirror. You’re one brave mama.

Lori Lockhart - January 30, 2013 - 10:26 pm

Lidia, you are the most amazing woman I have ever known. The way you love beyond all pain. And your determination is unmatched. I love seeing your daily life with Isadora and I believe that God has you both in his hands. God bless you both always.

Lori Lockhart

Emily - January 30, 2013 - 10:28 pm

If only the world had more of this, Lidia! You are an inspiration.

Jacqueline - January 30, 2013 - 10:35 pm

SUCH A BEAUTIFUL POST!! Your words have truly touched my heart!

crystal - January 30, 2013 - 10:35 pm

Thank you for sharing this. Thank you for being the amazing, beautiful and brave woman you are. Your words have inspired me and encouraged me in more ways than you’ll ever know. I forwarded this post to my mother in law who is a two time breast cancer survivor and just turned 50. I know that you and your words will be an amazing blessing to her too. Thank you!

Samantha - January 30, 2013 - 10:45 pm

Beautiful Lidia, absolutely beautiful! You are such an inspiration not just in photography but in my spiritual journey. Your beautiful story was what my soul needed at this point in my life. Thank you for having the courage to share. You and Isadora will always have a special place in my prayers.

Annie - January 30, 2013 - 11:08 pm

Thank you so much for shareing your life with us. I read everything that you post of facebook. you give me hope that what I have always tried to tell me kid’s and grandkid’s is true. This world can be a better place one person at a time. It don’t matter if your growen or just a child. a smile from a child can light up a room full of older people, a streached out hand too homeless person just wanting a meal. It does not matter how you give of your self it all starts with just one person.
I really feel that you make this world so beautiful just by being in it. Thank you for everything you do for others and for the wonderful little darling, Isadora that you share with all of us. I really belive God has big plan’s for her in this world. may God Bless and keep you.

Jackie Jones - January 31, 2013 - 12:58 am

I just want to say that your words truly have a impact on me. You inspire me! I have not had an easy road in my life and I feel what you have gone through. My husband left my two boys and I back in 2011 and we had to pack up and leave. We moved back in with my family and I was so lost, hurt and angry. I started full time college Jan. 2012 towards my nursing degree. I was very excited to get on the right track. Than Nov 15, 2012 at the age of 29 I was diagnosed with Triple Positive Breast Cancer. I had my mastectomy on Dec 28, 2012 and I had my first round of Chemo 1/29/13. You inspire me to become someone who has so much passion for life. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. It is not easy to do. I am sharing my journey with my family and friends and I have cried as I have written out my blog posts. Your post touched me and I did cry as I was reading this. I am just starting on my journey, the journey you survived! Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for sharing and opening up. You truly are an inspiration. Here is my blog post that was one of the hardest I wrote and showing everyone how ugly cancer is http://www.craftyjones.blogspot.com/2013/01/its-not-temporary.html you inspire me so much. Thank you.

~Jackie

Judy - January 31, 2013 - 6:35 am

Thank you for such a beautiful and moving post. I emailed to my biological daughter who was diagnosed with malignant brain tumor last year and who also is a beautiful artist like you.

Kelly - January 31, 2013 - 6:35 am

I don’t even know where to begin, you have been through so much yet you are so positive and uplifting to others. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, you inspire, you make me realize how very lucky I am and I should cherish it every minute of every day. Isadora is a very special child with a extra special mommy.

Laila - January 31, 2013 - 6:54 am

What an amazing journey Lydia. You are strong, very brave and so beautiful! Inside and out. Thank you for sharing your story with me, it has really touched me.

Many blessings! x

Danielle - January 31, 2013 - 6:59 am

I admire you more than words can say. Your blog has touched me and tears fall as I hope that one day I can be as strong as you are to write a post like this. Your portraits and words have made me realise that I never look in the mirror as my reflection is similar to yours and there is so much pain in my soul to bare it somedays. Gets better every day, but I’m sure it will never go away. I look forward to reading more of your story.

Denise - January 31, 2013 - 7:45 am

What a REAL woman of God! God has really blessed you as His servant.

Lovella Paradiso - January 31, 2013 - 8:16 am

I don’t know you, but I admire you, your strength, your passion & love far beyond what any words can express. You are an inspiration.

Ken Gehring - January 31, 2013 - 8:19 am

Beautiful! Thank you for sharing your story and I wish you much sucess and recovery!

Sian Hewett - January 31, 2013 - 8:19 am

You have been my inspiration in my work for a long time and now you are my inspiration for my life too. My company are skydiving in aid of a breast cancer charity in the UK – you have touched so many people <3

Whitney McQuarry - January 31, 2013 - 8:20 am

Just want to tell you, I think you are absolutely beautiful. Inside and out.I think it takes an insane amount of courage to share the things you have. You give courage to so many women and its no wonder Isadora is as amazing as she is. The courage, strength and determination she has shown (as much as you have shared with your fans and friends) is a reflection of the mother you are to her. With a mother like you, how can she fail. You both are destined for great things.

Stacy Smith - January 31, 2013 - 8:21 am

You have inspired me for years. God bless you.

Crystal C - January 31, 2013 - 8:23 am

You are an inspiration to so many, and make so many of our roads look EASY. You will be added to my daily prayer list, that Isadora will fully heal from all of her health complication. Maybe that is the reason for your intense passion and gift, so that you may also see the power of the prayer of others in your precious Isadora. I understand everything you say about that passion you have, it’s so intense it hurts, and so few people understand what that is like…

Tam Nguyen Photography - January 31, 2013 - 8:24 am

Lidia (sorry I think that’s how it’s spelled), have you seen this video ‘The Light That Shines’ that was shot with Sue Bryce? It’s very touching. https://vimeo.com/57648966

Jyn - January 31, 2013 - 8:27 am

You are amazing!

Maribel - January 31, 2013 - 8:28 am

God Bless you, you are such an inspiration!

Regina - January 31, 2013 - 8:32 am

You are an inspritation. A warrior. And such a sweet story. Your daughter is so blessed to call you mother. And your work is wonderful and motivating.

Ashley Price - January 31, 2013 - 8:33 am

Thank you so much for posting this and sharing it with all of us. You are truly an inspiration and I am so amazed by how strong, brave and selfless you are. If only the world had more kind-hearted souls like you!

Ronda Harter - January 31, 2013 - 8:34 am

Beautiful. Although my journey looks entirely different, your story and that poem spoke to me this morning. Thank you for sharing!

Sarah - January 31, 2013 - 8:34 am

What a blessing. So much I can relate to as a single mom of 4 who has had cancer, a failed marriage, a difficult childhood and college years. So much pain. I’ve spent so many years in crisis. I’m not out of the woods yet, and your story is what I needed because I have not begun to have passion for life again yet. 3 yrs ago in a dark place, I discovered photography and it drew me out of depression and resulted in a business that now can support me and my children. Wow, a new life and career starting at 30? Who would have thought. Love the similarities in our stories but even more covetous of coming out on the other side as you have. Hit another crisis this past year and taking a long time to work thru depression and forgiveness and anger. God is our only light and He has allowed all of this to make me dependent on Him. “Though He slay me, yet will I hope in Him.” Job 13:15. Thank you for sharing the light on your dark path.

Jen B - January 31, 2013 - 8:36 am

Very beautiful… Thank you for sharing.

xx Jen (18 month cancer survivor)

Megan Bryant - January 31, 2013 - 8:37 am

Ever since I discovered your photography page about 2 years ago, I have been a huge fan and follower. I later learned from some posts you made that you were a cancer survivor and daily battled with your daughter’s ailments. You are such a strong woman. I admire you, your work, and your desire to inspire others. The photos here in this post truly speak to me…I see a woman who has been through hell and back, and still is not letting it get her down. Your daughter has the greatest mentor and example set before her–her Mom. I mean, let’s face it, not all Moms are like you. You make me want to be a better person…to let go of the “flaws” on my body and be proud of the marks that childbearing has placed all over me. To not be ashamed of never wearing a bikini again. To become even more excited about the next precious life that I can bring into the world. God made me in his image, so why would I want to be any other way? Thank you so much for your genuine, heartfelt post. Thank you!

Debbie Wibowo - January 31, 2013 - 8:37 am

Lidia, I’ve been silently following your work since I learned about your two years ago. You continue to mesmerize me with the way you see life, kindness, passion, positive attitude, as well as with the love and connection between you and Isadora. I live far from my parents, who are struggling with their health. Every time I need a “pick me up” moment, I look to your pictures and encouraging words, and I know that I am not alone. Thank you for being a candle in this world. I would like to copy the poem if it’s OK with you.

Karen Wood - January 31, 2013 - 8:38 am

Beautiful, Lidia. Just beautiful. You are salt and light, sweet lady.

Jena Kessel - January 31, 2013 - 8:39 am

Lidia, you are such an inspiration to me and my work. You have touched my life. God bless you and isadora.

Debbie Martin - January 31, 2013 - 8:45 am

Beautiful in every way!!! God really does bless us in the most amazing ways. I, too, find every day a blessing and try to pass on my passion for life. Many of us faced with possible mortality know God and put our passion for life out there. You are truly inspirational with the way you share your passion for yourself, your photography and mostly for your beautiful Isadora. I love your posts and read them all. Thank you so much for sharing your story, your passions and your little girl with us. God will continue to bless you both. Hugs and <3

Marni Finder - January 31, 2013 - 8:45 am

Thank you!! Thank you for kicking my butt in gear and not taking my life granted for another second. You are an amazing person from what I can tell from your post and your journey. You are touching sooooo many with your art and with your words…. Thnk you from all the rest of us. Sometimes I think the only thing I can offer this world is perhaps a good picture here and there (I am still trying to achieve and grow in my art). But…. Shame on me… I and all of us all have so much to offer this life!! I will continue to follow your work!! P.s. how did you do such amazing clouds in the first shot of this blog entry? Photoshop? Or just an amazingly fantastic sky? :0)

Alexis Minter - January 31, 2013 - 8:49 am

So beautiful, Thank you for sharing!

Juliana - January 31, 2013 - 8:50 am

Beautiful words and images. Thanks for sharing this. It is just what I needed.

Kayla - January 31, 2013 - 8:50 am

You are BEAUTIFUL!! And so strong. I love these pictures. You are amazing!!

Would love if you would check out my blog
http://www.stickyfingersmuddytoes.wordpress.com
:)
God Bless!

Aubrey Sapero - January 31, 2013 - 8:50 am

So much strength and encouragement in this post, its so open and honest and we all appreciate that. You are an amazing woman with such fabulous talent. Thanks for all that you do!

Ashley - January 31, 2013 - 8:51 am

What a beautiful story! Thank you for sharing. I am not a photographer but love photography. You are so insperational and genuine. You are a very strong woman. **hugs**

Tracy Lynn - January 31, 2013 - 8:53 am

You are an amazing woman of God Lidia. Reading your words makes me realize that I CAN.. do today, and not tomorrow.
Thank you
Bless You

Christopher - January 31, 2013 - 8:55 am

I commend you on your strength and commitment; it is truly a testament to those who are suffering and burdend with their own hardships. However, this is just my personal opinion and I am in no way passing judgment, even though your scars are part of your testimony, perhaps (in a public forum, anyway) you may wish to reconsider the frontal nudity. You are a beautiful woman who has a message of strength and faith, but I dont think that it is cause for exception to Gods desire for mosdesty in our lives. While I saw the pictures for what they were and, I believe, what you intended them to be, as a man, a married man at that, I have to say I felt some initial discomfort. A lot of other men may, unfortunately, take a more perverse pleasure in viewing them and completely disregard their intended purpose, and I would be willing to wager that is something you do not want. I think there may be better and more appropriate and less public forums where you can display these for your intended audience, other than on FB where your message and intentions might be misinterpreted and perverted by our morally diseased society.
Again, I do not wish to pass judgment, only to express my concerns and offer advice. Make of it what you will.
A brother in Christ,

Teresa - January 31, 2013 - 8:56 am

Thank-You so very much for sharing your story. It is inspiring and very touching. I read on your Blog or Facebook post regulary to see how you and Isadora are doing. You are a very strong and wonderful woman. We can all learn from you. THANKS

Almut - January 31, 2013 - 8:57 am

So so good!!!

BriAnna Denbow - January 31, 2013 - 8:57 am

Oh Lidia, I’m not even sure how to put into words how beautiful and inspiring this post and you are!! Thank you for sharing your heart. You are an amazing person and I’m so glad that FB brought you into my life, even if from a distance.

Valerie Rinker - January 31, 2013 - 8:59 am

Consider you heart full then, because you have really touched me with your story. What a beautiful and strong woman you are! I pray that God continues to bless you abundantly. Thank you for sharing your story and your gift with the world!

Marni Finder - January 31, 2013 - 8:59 am

Thank you!! Thank you for kicking my butt in gear and not taking my life granted for another second. You are an amazing person from what I can tell from your post and your journey. You are touching sooooo many with your art and with your words…. Thnk you from all the rest of us. Sometimes I think the only thing I can offer this world is perhaps a good picture here and there (I am still trying to achieve and grow in my art). But…. Shame on me… I and all of us all have so much to offer this life!! I will continue to follow your work!! P.s. how did you do such amazing clouds in the first shot of this blog entry? Photoshop? Or just an amazingly fantastic sky?

Jenn - January 31, 2013 - 8:59 am

I “read” your pictures and your words , I quote Kara ” This is the most beautiful thing my eyes have ever read” ( as Kara so eloquently put into words what I felt when looking at your amazing pictures)and it sent a whirlwind of emotions through me..

I worked in the Operating Room doing surgeries like yours and with each woman, I wished there was a way or gift I could give them, in return for touching MY life, in some of the worst moments in theirs. What you have to look at,and what you call a “masacre field” on your body, isn’t that at all… I see a road map of where you’ve been and how you got to the beauty of what life is REALLY about. You are amazing, and inspiring, you are a sunrise and a sunset, both a beginning and an end to one part of the journey. And I thank you for taking me along

Heather Braun - January 31, 2013 - 8:59 am

Reading this brought tears to my eyes. This poem spoke to me this morning. You are beautiful and inspiring!

Heather - January 31, 2013 - 9:04 am

You are such a beautiful inspiration! Thank you for sharing your story.

Brittany Burtch - January 31, 2013 - 9:04 am

Your courage and your words are such an inspiration. I pray you and your daughter, rest easy in the arms of the ultimate healer. Thank you so much for being so open and for sharing your journey with all of us. God Bless!

Lisa - January 31, 2013 - 9:04 am

Your courage is both amazing and inspiring <3

Kristin Morris - January 31, 2013 - 9:06 am

You are the definition of beauty, strength, talent, and truth. I don’t understand why someone would have a problem with the photos. I find them uplifting. My heart goes out to her. I love the last picture, it shows such genuine joy. You my friend are a talented photographer, and I hope to have half the talent you have one day. I am sharing this on my FB page, because I think women as a whole, lose sight of who they are everyday. I am guilty of this myself. It is life. Life happens, and sometimes we need a reminder of why were are here. So, with that being said, THANK YOU.

Anna Lopez - January 31, 2013 - 9:06 am

Simply, THANK GOD for YOU! BIG HUGS AND KISSES FOR YOU AND YOUR DAUGHTER!

Sonya Wolf - January 31, 2013 - 9:09 am

I believe you have another calling…a call to lead and inspire others to overcome and shine. Thank you for your words and for sharing such an intimate time in your life. This sharing brings about so much hope and life in others. God Bless You and Yours. May you continue to shine.

elma - January 31, 2013 - 9:10 am

Wow what a beautiful post!! She is amazing and sooooo beautiful!!!

Jenny - January 31, 2013 - 9:12 am

I am left speechless,my tears saying more then any words I can think of. Thank you for having the courage to share your experiences. You are a truly beautiful woman.

Amanda B. - January 31, 2013 - 9:16 am

Lidia, you are beautiful, you are an amazing mother, and such an inspiration to us all. I am so glad to have found you on the internet (years ago) and to have the opportunity to follow along with you in the stories you tell and “life” in general. You’ve got a huge supporter in NC!

Misty Beams - January 31, 2013 - 9:22 am

Thank you for letting us look thru the window. I think that is the bravest thing a person can do — to let the world really look in. May he continue to lift you and your daughter up forming a hedge of protection and peace.

Amanda - January 31, 2013 - 9:22 am

Lidia, you are incredible! Your journey may have been difficult, but it has helped to fashion you into HIS image! Thank you for sharing your passion, your heart, and your precious Isadora!

Abigail - January 31, 2013 - 9:36 am

Lidia… this post. There are no words. Only thank you. Thank you. <3

Lynn - January 31, 2013 - 9:37 am

Amazing…..simply amazing! YOU are an inspiration! YOU are beautiful inside and out!

Jackie - January 31, 2013 - 9:37 am

Thank you for sharing your story…God turns our brokenness into greatness. You are a beautiful example of that! Many blessings for you and sweet Isadora :)

Rachel - January 31, 2013 - 9:37 am

Your spirit just resonates from these images. I see nothing but your courage, strength, wisdom, and TRUE beauty. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability…it brought tears to my eyes and this world – with all the darkness you know so well – is truly a brighter place with people like you in it.

Kristi White - January 31, 2013 - 9:45 am

Wow, I’m speechless – what a beautiful message you deliver! <3 <3 Your soul is amazing and beautiful as are you! I wish I could have a fraction of the courage and passion that you have – you are so inspiring! Don't ever stop doing what you do – it really does make a difference in those that follow you! And I must say .. I have thought this from the first time I started following you … Your daughter is simply the most adorable little girl I have ever seen! XOXO

Andrea - January 31, 2013 - 9:50 am

Lidia this is one of the most beautiful articles I ever red!! And I mean it deeply! You are a gift for so many right now, and I’m happy for you!! xo

Jeanne - January 31, 2013 - 10:01 am

Just beautiful <3 So touching, I am afraid I can not come up with adequate words. Thank you for being you & sharing that with all of us. xoxoxoxo

Karen - January 31, 2013 - 10:29 am

Your words are so inspirational and encouraging. Your spirit is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your everthing with us.

KATJA - January 31, 2013 - 10:45 am

Thank you for sharing your story! It is easy to forget that true beauty truly lies within. You are also very encouraging to “newer” photographers like myself. Thanks for reminding me that I am enough.

Katie Guth - January 31, 2013 - 10:47 am

You post and words are so very inspiring. You encourage and you definitely inspire many, many people. Beautiful story and gorgeous imagery. Thank you for sharing. <3

Tavia - January 31, 2013 - 10:58 am

Thank you Lidia.

Kim - January 31, 2013 - 11:08 am

This is such a beautiful and empowering, COURAGEOUS post. Thank you for sharing your journey.

lyndsay smitke - January 31, 2013 - 11:39 am

you have brought tears to my eyes with your words and art. what a beautiful, strong, honest, courageous and miraculous story. you are blessed, now keep flying!!!!!!

Amber - January 31, 2013 - 12:23 pm

Lydia, there is a quote that reminds me of you.

“I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in the darkness, the astonishing light of your own being.”

You are such an inspiration to us all, and I’m so glad you share your life with us!

Natalia - January 31, 2013 - 12:31 pm

Lidia you are so beautiful inside and out! Your posts on facebook give me so much inspiration, thank you for sharing your story. Many blessings to you and Isadora.

Sara - January 31, 2013 - 2:00 pm

I was brought to tears by this. You are such an amazing person and mother. I am only 22 and just started my photography career and you inspire me so much. We fret so much over the little things like a cable bill or the dog chewing up a pillow and its not worth it. There’s so much beauty out there in this world and some amazing people who get through struggles and overcome hurdles that I could never imagine. You are an inspiration! You have truly touched me and make me want to do great things!!!!

Linda - January 31, 2013 - 3:18 pm

Thank you for sharing your soul with us! Your pains, struggles, hurts, passions and love! we share much of the same struggles and yet HIS love and grace have given us new life!
In daily gratitude of HIS love!
Love and blessings to you,
Linda

Kelly G. - January 31, 2013 - 4:27 pm

So beautiful and passionate. You and your beautiful little princess are such a gift to this world! God Bless you!

Tina Faulkner - January 31, 2013 - 6:30 pm

Thank you.

Julie - February 1, 2013 - 2:47 am

I am now 33, and lost…. and just found this post. Thank you so much!

gloria galvan - February 1, 2013 - 10:18 am

Well. I certainly feel bad for you and your child. and it is good that you thank the Lord and pray, yes,it is God’s grace that keeps us here and alive…. I thank the Lord daily
for my 25 year old daughter that had thyroid cancer last year
and a total thyroidectomy, followed by radiation. then 8 months
later had a brain clot. she is ok now, and she is beautiful. I love her so much that i wish i could protect her every minute of
the day. I pray to God to heal her completely and never let her
have another day of sickness.and I wish the same for you and your
daughter. God is good….gloria

Claudia - February 1, 2013 - 2:42 pm

Thanks for sharing. Beautiful <3

Emma - February 2, 2013 - 10:51 am

What an absolutely beautiful and inspiring post, thank you for sharing xxx

brandy yeazel - February 4, 2013 - 12:23 pm

thank you for being you .

Hellen Gomes - February 4, 2013 - 8:57 pm

linda história de superação… Deus continue te abnçoando cada dia mais… felicidades para vc e sua família linda.

Rommy Wuhe {Atomgbe II } - February 5, 2013 - 4:35 pm

You are a complete gifts given to heal the world, no matter what,take heart and love your courage too.

The lord is your strength.

Amy Frye - February 6, 2013 - 2:14 pm

So, so beautiful. :)

CMW - February 7, 2013 - 10:47 pm

I’m not a photographer yet. I want to be as a hobby and maybe as a side business. I take photos with my little digital and edit and play with photoshop. one day i’ll own a real camera. I’ve followed various artists for years. I have seen your work here and there but today is the first I’ve read your blog. The post I read where you show your home full of toys and such in all its imperfections…that was perfect to me. I saw so much love in those pictures than i could in a newborn shot. I thought to myself, when i have babies i want my home to look like that. I want it filled with love and life. Then i read this post and it hit me hard because i’m on a journey right now. i’ve hit rock bottom. i’m still picking myself up. i’m faking smiles and trying to take one day at a time. i’m learning to listen to God more and trust He knows what’s best for me. The poem was so beautiful…it could be about any woman fighting a tough battle. all week God has lead me to read something or talk to someone and its inspiring me to keep going. Because so many days it feels like it would be better to just quit. But i’m determined to be a survivor. thank you for sharing.

Julienne Manalastas - February 11, 2013 - 3:51 pm

Thank you. God just spoke to me through your poem. Thank you so much.

Torsten - February 16, 2013 - 8:20 am

Hi, I am from Germany and I found your blog by accident, so to speak. Just a few minutes ago, I was reading your post about your breast cancer, and I was looking at some of your pictures and your creative photography.

Your story touches my heart, it made me cry. But on the other hand I am happy to see what a strong woman you are who has so much to share. Thank you for your wonderful poems and pictures and for showing us your beautiful, colorful home.

This all is so inspiring, so warm and touching, thank you, thank you, thank you! I love all your colors!

Grant Bentley - March 25, 2013 - 6:34 pm

Lidia,

Thanks for a well-crafted online experience that all men who love women should witness. I would be honored to have you listen to my feminine side through my song writing and recording. I also created a music video of one of my songs (called “Dancin’ Feet”) about Marta Beckett of Amargosa Opera House fame. She has also inspired me to create without reservation.

Bobi - April 10, 2013 - 7:32 pm

Reading this was not only absolutely what I needed today but absolutely God ordained for me to read. Just wanted to let you know how encouraging your deeply moving post was. My thoughts are with you.

Carmen - August 7, 2013 - 1:23 pm

Lidia, you are an amazing and inspirational woman! I keep coming back to read this part of your blog from time to time in hopes of lifting my spirit and not lose hope after being diagnosed with BC. You have such a beautiful soul. Thank you for sharing.

Stacie Lehoux - August 10, 2013 - 12:37 am

Lidia,
I have been following you for quite sometime now and just want you to know how much you touch my life on a daily basis. This blog I just read was so inspiring to me at this moment in my life and the poem you shared at the end is something I really needed to hear. I was born with osteogenesis imperfecta (brittle bone disease) and recently had surgery on my leg after a year of not being able to walk normal and was in pain everyday from a horrible break I had. At times I wonder why God made me this way and why its so hard for me to find love. But when I see your story and how triumphant and strong you are, it gives me a reason to keep on going and lift my head high. I too have a passion for photography and am so in love with your work, it amazes me. I just want to thank you for being you. God bless you.

Carmen - September 2, 2013 - 12:36 pm

Ever since my diagnosis I find myself coming back to read your blog. Having all your dignity stripped from this horrible disease I find peace and comfort in reading your blog. Although I lay here in pain, I know there is hope in the end.

Diane Zarlingo - September 19, 2013 - 10:50 am

Again I visit and direct women to this post. I have never been without words. I simply don’t have enough magnificent words to describe how I feel about your willingness and ability to positively effective others. Prayers, blessings, and hugs to you and your lil love. xoxo

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